Let's go back... not all the way back, just back to the beginning of this leg of my journey:
April 2010 -
5'5", 170, 32% bodyfat, 39-38-42.5
A typical day -
Up at 8:00 a.m. (after hitting the snooze alarm for an hour!), stop in at Burger King or Chick-Fil-A for breakfast on my way to work, lunch at Wendy's or Burger King, some days it was back to Wendy's for a frosty about 3 in the afternoon to stave off the mid-day crash, dinner sometimes at home but most likely out at one of the various restaurants in the area. A glass, or a couple, of wine while I hang out at home. Sleep. Wake. Repeat!
Now, of course, not EVERY day was like this but thinking back I sincerely cannot remember a week where I cooked more than one meal at home for more than 2 MAYBE 3 days!
A typical weekend -
Reference "a typical day" but include hanging out with my friends and either hitting the bars, clubs or hanging out at home doing NOTHING but add Malibu Rum and Diet Coke (sure... the Diet Coke is going to make a difference at this point!)
Can you say denial??? I told myself I wasn't drinking that much and I wasn't eating that bad or I wasn't really that lazy and compared to some of the other people that I know, I wasn't... that's the sad part!
What happened -
No life changing event really. I didn't go to the doctor and have him tell me that if I didn't make a change I would have x amount of time to live or anything (thank God!) Nope, far from that! Really, I was stopping in to my local Wawa (for soda and Oreo cakesters probably) and I got out of the car - pulled my pants up over my muffin top, sucked in my stomach (like a guy with a beer gut), adjusted my bra so my backfat wasn't so obvious through my baby Gap shirt (this damn thing fit me back when I bought it), made sure my boobs were adjusted just so in my push up bra (hoping to draw attention to that area much moreso than the rest of what was going on) and carried myself on in for my purchase.
Now, one second, let's take one tiny step back to about an hour earlier when I was at home doing lunges... no... not the workout kind you do at the gym... the kind you do when you are trying to get your jeans over your fat thighs and your big ass... those lunges... to stretch the jeans out enough! After I ripped my first pair of jeans (okay, maybe they weren't actually mine, perhaps they were my daughter's) I went ahead and grabbed another pair (remind me to look at the calendar to see if my period is going to start soon - this HAS to be due to bloating) that didn't require as much work.
Okay, so back to Wawa. I get my sugar fix for the morning on my way to meet up with my friends at our favorite Mexican restaurant for a delicious lunch filled with chips, salsa, cheese dip, fajita burrito with more cheese dip, add the fish bowl sized Malibu and Diet please and thank you and you are now talkin' about a party!
Time for a change -
I looked at myself and thought "Is this how I want to look? Is this what I want to do for the rest of my life? Is this how I want people to see me?" More importantly I reminded myself that metabolism slows with age and if this is the shape I am in now... 50 is going to be very ugly!
So, I decided to join my local gym (oh damn, that's right, I have been a member for about 10 years and not gone for about the past 3 of those!) That day, I started my changes for good! I made the decision that I wanted to change ME for ME... not for anyone else! I wanted to get up in the morning and feel good when I looked in the mirror. I wanted to be able to get dressed without the Crisco and pry bar needed to get my pants on! I wanted to be healthy again... I wanted to be happy again... REALLY happy... not fake happy because I am walking around in a food coma or buzzed from the wine and the rum! I had to DIG DEEP to find it in myself to get my butt moving, to get out of bed in the morning and hit the gym and to push myself hard to stick with it! And I did... and I still am... and I am still pushing myself... harder and harder with every passing day! I don't fully reach my goal before I set another one for myself and not just related to getting into the gym either... I have decided to do a complete overhaul of myself and I could not be happier with my progress so far!!!
What now -
Well, now I am going to hit the gym... it is New Year's Eve and I know that I am going to have some sort of plans this evening but there are only two days left in the week and I have two muscle groups to work still so it is time for a workout!
I hope everyone has a happy and safe night! Please don't drink and drive... call a cab or rent a limo! http://www.americaneaglelimo.com/ (yep... company plug!) :) Whatever you do make it fun and memorable and don't forget to start 2012 off on the right foot... the one with a tennis shoe on it!!!
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