I am on top of the world right now!
I knew that if I dieted or ate right or even worked out that it would HELP but I really didn't know deep down inside of me that if I REALLY put my mind to it and REALLY worked at it, I could look like one of those women that I "hated" (read envied the hell out of!)
Instead of trying all of those years, I drank and ate myself "happier." I would call, text, email my girlfriends and make plans to meet up for dinner, have a few drinks with dinner and "enjoy" ourselves. I was trying to find true happiness in my food and/or in my alcohol. I ate, I drank, I got buzzed or drunk, I fell asleep or passed out sometimes, I woke up (hungover which makes you drag and not feel like doing anything) and did it all over again. Not every day but more days than not.
I had so much fun hanging out with my best friend at the time that I didn't spend time hanging out with anyone but her really. We had so much in common! We had "fun" like I couldn't have with anyone else! We started working out together in April of 2010. We stopped talking in May of 2010.
I am not THAT person anymore. I don't want to be filled with hatred and insecurity and I was. I don't want to talk about people and point out their issues and their problems so that I can feel better about me or about what I am not doing! I sobered up and took a look around at my life and cleaned house!!! And... I HAVE NOT TURNED BACK ONCE!!! Last I heard she had stopped working out and was still struggling with her weight but I don't know. I do wish more than anything that she would have stuck with the workouts and stuck with eating right so she could feel the confidence that I feel! She needs it just like I needed it just like you NEED it!!!
Sadly, I see these women all around me. 30, 40, 50 year old women who have not taken care of themselves, not worked out and not dedicated time for themselves. I see these women at the bar (there is one right next to my gym), I see them at the grocery store, out shopping, eating out - I see them everywhere! And I know how to spot them - they are the old me! They join together with their friends for some "girl time" out to dinner or a "girls night out" at the bar.
I am on a MISSION to change the way we "hang out" with each other. If I can make one woman a day, every day, for the rest of my life make a change in herself and stress the importance of her helping her friends, imagine what we could do?!?! You HAVE TO decide that you are ready to make a change. Then, start implementing those changes. How about a "girls night out" at the gym for Zumba?? Or take turns making clean, healthy meals at home! You may be surprised with how good of a cook you are or your friends! Instead of emailing each other the happy hour specials at the local bar, email healthy recipes you're going to try or maybe a new trail to hike?!
It CAN be done -- look at my pictures -- I am not done changing myself -- I am still working -- and I will work every day for the rest of my life on myself - for ME!!! And I don't just mean working out! I have tons of energy now. I feel like I can conquer the world! I make different goals for myself daily!
PLEASE think about how much happier you would be with something as simple as sliding into your favorite pair of jeans that aren't so tight you can't stand to wear them! It is a little step but if one by one we all commit to changing ourselves and helping our friends make changes then the epidemic wouldn't be OBESITY! Imagine an epidemic of FIT, HAPPY, HEALTHY, LEAN, TONED, STRONG, CONFIDENT, ENERGETIC women!!!
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