It’s a gorgeous 85 degree, sunny, summer day and I am sitting on the boardwalk with my girlfriend soaking up the sun, chatting about our plans for the day, watching the families pass by and woofing down some boardwalk fries. Hundreds of people of all shapes, sizes and ethnicity are passing by and of course my girlfriend and I are making comments about their outfits, shoes, horrible sun burns, etc.
This BITCH has the audacity to come strutting down the boardwalk in her tiny ass bikini, gorgeous long hair, perfect stomach, legs, butt, everything! I set my fries down and look over at my girlfriend and roll my eyes, I mean really?? We have dissected this BITCH to pieces trying to find something wrong with her… aaannnnddddd… NOTHING! I mean is this the way we walk down the boardwalk now?? Everyone else seems to have been able to find their clothes to cover up a little bit before prancing around but her… nahhhh!!!
Wait… why exactly is she a bitch? Why is she out of line for wearing a bikini… at the beach… on an 85 degree day? Because she actually chose to make better decisions about what she eats or maybe because she decided to hit the gym before relaxing on the beach for a few hours or because she has put more thought and effort into how she wants her body to look or because she isn’t being lazy and eating crap? Everyone finds themselves staring at her because she is so beautiful… so different from the rest of us that aren’t taking care of ourselves!
THIS makes her a bitch?? NO! This makes ME insecure!! This is why I have now decided that SHE is the problem! SHE is a "bitch"! Why can’t I look at this woman and say “Damn, she looks amazing! Good for her! I should really put these fries down and walk the boardwalk.” Instead of getting inspired to make a change for myself I sink down a little further, feel even more insecure about myself, cover up a little more and get the hell off the boardwalk!
I feel confident that I am not the only woman that has ever had this happen or ever felt this way. I wanted so bad to look like her or to feel as confident as she did but I just didn’t.
Today, I go to the gym and I still see women that are in better shape and I have the utmost respect for them. I know what work and dedication it takes to look like they do. More importantly I can look at myself in the mirror and say “damn that woman is gorgeous!”
I am not at my goal body fat and there are still things that I pick about myself and that I want to change but now I say “I WILL change (whatever it is)” and KNOW that I can do it!!! I have the faith in myself, I have the drive, I have the desire, I have the energy (very importantly) and I have the courage to take the next step to a better me!!
If you are not looking in the mirror saying "damn this woman is gorgeous" and you want to make a change and you are ready to commit then don't let anything stop you!! I suggest you start out by writing down your short term goals and your long term goals (so when your short term goals are met you still know what you are working towards). Decide one small change that you will make this week! Start now.. start today... don't say "I will start Monday" because Monday comes and Monday is usually hectic and then you don't end up making the small change so you say you will start Tuesday instead... or worse... the next Monday and it doesn't happen again and the next thing you know another year has passed!
So, Wednesday is a good starting point I think!!! :)
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